Firstly I would apologise to everyone who have been reading my blog for my absence. Hmm, I dont mind anyone reading my blog, as long as you’re not blood related. If you get what I mean. I havent felt like blogging much lately, and I have my reasons for doing so.

SO. I flew back from Australia and arrived in Singapore on the 31st. My brother enlisted into the army on the 1st of Feb and I was a little worried for him. But he’s coping better than me since he’s much fitter compared to me:) Today was my first day back in commandos and yesterday was my last day as a regular. Sure, the commandos were more welcoming, although air force is supposedly to have more welfare, professionalsim and in general a better life, but for some reason, I just felt more welcomed when going back to camp today.

I shall touch a bit on valentines day. Didnt do anything except go for my wing chun training. (really got pwned during sparring, pretty badly. Prolly due to the lack of practice) Well actually I had alot of activities lined up but decided against it since my mate wasnt feeling too good and he should get a rest instead. Valentines came and went, and the most important part was what I felt about it. It didnt really strike me hard on that day on how alone or “lonely” I felt I was(which was how I would usually feel), but instead, it felt like a normal day, like every other day. This was probably due to the decisions I am making, that would change my singlehood:) And just to add, not that I know who she is yet, but that special someone isnt someone from my social circle. Big Smile!:D

I will be staying in until friday, and until then, ciao! I promise to blog more frequently!

Anyway. I called a friend, contacted another over facebook, and sorta planned some activities to keep myself busy so that I wont be overwhelmed with all the feelings that might come with the failure.

Chances of me failing tomorrows flight, at 0935 aussie time, 90% . Lets just hope for the 10 percent. 

Cheers

Imagine, how silly would it be if I failed just because I couldnt find the airport?? I would never forgive myself. Anyway. I apparently had better improvement as said by my instructor for that flight. Compared to the other 2 sorites earlier, I didnt get much scolding, which made me really happy, and the instructor didnt use any vulgarities. Like gosh, im OVERJOYED. Should I say that? Main thing is that he said that there is an improvement in my performance.

I also learnt several things during this selection. You do not need to be passionate inorder to pass. And, no matter how passionate you might be, you can still fail. You might be the one who studied the hardest, or be the most intelligent of all, and you could still fail the selection. This isnt training, its a selection. And passing it depends on many variables.

Just like when people ask me: “Mark, when would you be back in Singapore?” I tell them “it depends”. But the longer I stay here, the better.

Sigh.

But im still confident that I have an edge, and will do well:)

AND….. Sorry guys, havent really had the time to blog or anything. Im in australia right now, I will explain about my new profile picture!:)(the one with the girl) some other time. Living a good life now, buffet for every meal of the day, putting on a bit of weight. Enjoying the freedom of my own room, own toilet, studying the things that I love. Gosh, I wish I could live like that forever.

Cheers all. Take care

Christmas was spent at parties, one on the 23rd, 24th was at my place, the one on the 25th was elsewhere. I wished church had a christmas service. I really miss the christmas service back in the old church.

So anw, back to the parties. One week before christmas, I had a stayover at my place! hhaha. Me and my friends baked a chocolate fudge cake, which actually tasted pretty good! Im sure that it should receive a rating of at least 7/10 from most people! Baking a cake is easier than I thought, quite straightforward. During the period my parents were away, my house became like a “chalet”. My friends had a blast. The party at my place on the 24th was BIG. We went ice-skating in the morning, then came to my house sometime in the afternoon. The rest of the time was spent preparing for the party. This time, we baked a tiramisu cake. Flooded with alcohol.It was an accident I swear. (we intended a pinch of alcohol in the tiramisu to give it some taste)

It looked delicious. But when everyone had a slice of it. It was another story altogether. The alcohol from the cake could be smelt some distance from the cake. It was a real pity because the cake looked delicious. But in the end, everyone had fun. They were playing the card game, 5-10, loser eats the cake. In the end, everyone had too much of the alcoholic cake and got a bit high:) Sometimes I think that alcohol is good for a party, lighten things up a bit, everyone gets a bit high, and has a good time!

Christmas is a good opportunity to have fun and show love to those around you. But lets not forget the true meaning of christmas.

Not to forget, if the cake tasted as good as it looked, we wouldn’t have had such a good time!

The yacht photos are out on facebook! Like finally. The yacht thing was on the 10th of december, and the photos came out on the 20th. I really loved it, looking at the photos is like re-living those memories. Infact, I might just organise a Yacht outing like that for my 21st! I havent completely recovered from the sunburn-which barely hurts at all. Still got some skin peeling from my back.

Tomorrow there will be a BBQ with my church mates. Forking out another 150 or so. I spent at least $600 over the past 12 days.  Oh well, christmas season. Besides, I have yet to buy anything for myself.

Ive been wanting to blog for awhile

I just realised, that for once, in my life(maybe), I wont be needing a companion. For the duration of the past few months and the next few months to come. Well in late feb we’ll see again, it depends on the training that Im undergoing right now.

Last weekend, I had a stayover at my place. A couple of friends stayed over and we made a chocolate fudge cake! Yummy! It was VERY good on the first attempt. Im sure it scores at least a 7 out of 10. Yup, and I just threw it away because I think its spoiling:( sad. While taking it to the bin, I noticed that the cake had a nicer “fudge” texture. Maybe next time I should put it in the chiller to get an effect like that. Baking is pretty easy. So this sat, one of my frnd’s friend, is gonna come over. We’re going to up the notch a bit, and bake a tiramisu cake! She’s a pro and loves baking, and Im sure the cake would be a success. Baking is pretty easy actually. Im beginning to wonder why my mom seems incapable of baking a cake of a reasonable standard.

bye all!

awww I love the yacht party pictures on my facebook <3

I read my own blog a few days ago, and realised that I’ve been very much blogging about the same thing. Subconsciously. Haha, my worries, my wants, my fears and all. Just to let everyone know, I passed the spinal test! Its not a 100% confirm thing but it is very very likely that I pass. Tamworth, here I come!

Whats next. Hm. Zoukout was last night, and avicii played the legendary track, “levels”. Check it out. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RubMUt-GQBo&list=PL1A518917071E6D61&index=8&feature=plpp_video

Anyway, I’ll be hosting a party on the 24th. Many people coming, prolly hit 20. Imagine, 20 people in my house? I really wanted to ask the church people to come over. But not close enough, its such a pity. I really wanted to.

How could I forget! I went with my friends on a yacht yesterday! 5 guys 6 girls, the whole thing cost $820. But I really had a blast. I was baked. And it was the first time I turned red from sunburn. First time seeing myself red lol. But I think I look pretty good with a red face Just saying. haha. And this girl asked to take a picture with me, cool stuff huh. Looking forward to the photos on facebook.

Cheers

Tomorrow the results will be out. For sure. Well maybe, you never know the results might be delayed. Im scared. Scared for the second time. Its the waiting thats killing me. Lets say if I dont make it, I will have a chance to find someone. For sure now. I havent got anyone in mind. But Im sure will make it in time for next year valentines. I need someone to talk to incase I fail, I dont want to call up another one of my guy friends. Sake. God Bless me. I must remember that having gone so far, I must always be thankful, and remember about all those who deserve it more than me-who didnt make it. At least im drawing the dollars, and at least I got the flight suit and whatnots. Remind me about the things I can do if I fail. Im scared. And I am only as tough as I think I am to be.

God Bless

Or, should I use the word gentleman” instead?

Back in commandos, our instructors always told us, “a man must have a pen”. As strange as it sounds, I can relate to what he means. My friend says, a man should wear a watch. Yup, thats why I started wearing watches, expensive ones:D So what is the difference between a “man” and a “gentleman”? In my opinion, a man is someone who thinks like an adult, someone who is able to make tough decisions, and be trusted with heavy responsibilities. There is probably not much difference between a man and a gentleman. But I think that when people use the word “gentleman” they probably expect more emphasis on character. Doing the right thing, knowing how to treat a lady, giving in, taking the initiative and living your life in the values that you believe in. (a bit more on the chivalrous side)

I feel that a man/gentleman, first of all should always have an ambition. You cant call yourself a man if you dont aspire to do something right? No matter how absurd this dream, ambition or goal might be, at least you have a direction in life. We’re still young, young people have the potential to fulfill their dreams. And, a dream must always come with a plan, if not it would be called DAYDREAMING, wouldnt it? Following which, a man should have the means. Means could be defined as many things, social, intellectual, emotional etc. Thinking about it, does having money make you a “man”? Nope it does not. But having these all these means would probably give you financial means too right? . As for “means”, im sure you could come up with a couple more.

To my third point. Looks. The physical and most superficial point. We are people, human no matter what. Physical appearances are bound to have an impact of an impression of someone, be it consciously or subconsciously. Like I said in the first paragraph, a man should wear a watch. A man should be groomed, which reflects discipline, but not to well kept(to the point of femininity). Slightly muscular? To show that he is capable of protecting himself. (from a woman at least! haha) Dress wise, less graphic tees, or tees with lesser attention grabbing designs on it. Im sure as guys get older, we would probably want to start wearing collared shirts and what nots. Something that people can take you seriously in.

On to my last and most important point! CHARACTER. Be chivalrous, responsible,when something bad happens, suck it up, think before you speak, demonstrate gentlemanliness, and be generous(I would want to say generous at all times but that would probably seem quite unrealistic). Notice all the points mentioned are things that we can actually improve about ourselves? It isnt something like looks where you are born with, or a silver spoon in  your mouth. Being able to list a couple of points is a good start, the next is to work on it and slowly develop yourself

And girls:) you could come up with a few pointers yourself, work on it and soon Singapore would be a place filled with ladies with character. If… You spend more than like… half an hour thinking of what defines a lady/woman character wise, you probably REALLY really need to start developing your character because you probably belong to a pool of people in Singapore who are labelled as shallow. Very often, people seem unaware of the importance thats placed on the character of a woman. 

Afterall,

“A man protects, a woman nurtures”

“Behind every successful man is a woman”

That was what I felt, and that was what I posted on my facebook wall. The night before that day, I had a strange dream regarding the spinal test. I guess, my fear is only because of the uncertainty of what’s about to happen next. Yesterday also, I felt a bit down. Havent felt this way for a while. At least, I know that if I have the ability to feel down, means I am not really living a military life! Haha. So now you learn something new. Life has to be good enough for me to feel depressed, or for people to get depressed. Yesterday the feeling of being down left as quickly as it came after going to the gym.

The session yesterday at the gym felt great! I always loved my gym, the only gym ive ever been to. And i love it becaause of the music. Music is impt, as it sets the mood to everything. The facilities there are pretty good too, but one of the downsides is that it can get crowded there. But I dont mind the crowd though.

I dont think I will feel depressed for a while, no reason to. Not if I fail spinal test. Whoa, if I fail I cant imagine how I would be able to manage myself and all the emotions. Ive sort of planned some activities that I could do with my friends, to keep myself occupied with the newfound free time I would get if I fail my spinal test. Its good to keep yourself occupied when you’re depressed, even better to do so with your friends

1)Get a car license, enough of flying planes. And after that, probaby a boat license too.

2)CNY Dinner! Which I can go for because I wont be flying overseas

3)Club, and go to some really beautiful nightspots that I researched on

4)PLAN MY 21ST BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION WOHOOO!!!!

5)Get a girlfriend. Haha, this time Im sure I will get one, even if I dont, Im sure i wil lat least get the chance to make some new girl friends… or at least flirt a little? haha alright im joking

6)Martial arts alllll the way. This is something im not allowed to do so legally. But if I fail.. oh well, back to fighting!

7)Have another secret gathering like the one I had in june! Shush, I shldnt say too much about it since I dont know who’s reading this blog. I will have it either way, the only difference is the scale

8)Learn to play the piano? And maybe learn to bake a cheese cake. I hope its stuff I dont just talk about, but actually get ON to doing it

9)Zouk Out. Fuck me, im going.

10)Apply leave and go overseas with my friends!

Haha, alright I already got myself eggg-cited now. And it seems like there are so much benefits if I fail huh! But trust me, I dont want to. Take care all!

Good night